2 Feb 2002
We’re all good brothers…
Last night I was inducted as the High Pi of Truman’s Lambda Chi chapter. It may only be a temporary 6-month appointment to help lower their insurance rates (while they search for an alum of their chapter to serve as advisor), but I’m still honored.
They told me beforehand that, following my induction, I’d have to read from the open ritual book and induct the other new officers. But the short paragraph I expected turned out to be 15 pages of text. And since it’s been 6 or 7 years since the last time I went through the initiation ceremony, I majorly screwed up the pronunciation of our open latin and greek mottos. Very embarrassing.
I’ve worked with these men as their faculty/staff advisor for a year and a half now, but I’m still ambivalent about the role I play. My being gay is no secret on campus, but it’s not a subject that seems open for discussion with them. So, I spend my time with them trying to play it as butch as possible and lowering my speaking voice. I don’t feel like I’ve allowed them to get to know me, nor have I gotten to know them.
But more importantly, I continue to wrestle with a kind of guilt over spending my free time working with a group of mostly white, mostly heterosexual men. As a student affairs professional, shouldn’t I focus on helping the disenfranchised? Shouldn’t I be working more with the gay community, or the Multicultural Affairs Center, or the International Students Office?
The Greek system here at Truman isn’t very popular among the faculty and staff, and chapters often have difficulty finding advisors. So in a way, I do feel like I’m working with a disenfranchised group (since white men often seem to get the short end of the stick in today’s increasingly PC society). And if I can in any small way prompt them to think about multicultural issues, I would consider the time I spend working with them a success.
I would look at it this way: maybe by being there you’ll help them become a little less homophobic.
david | 2 Feb 2002